Synopsis

This is a compilation of a manga essay originally published on pixiv. It tells a personal story of the author, aspiring mangaka who had never had sex, or even allowed herself to think about sex outside of reading BL manga. The author is a 28-year-old millennial who lives at home, a college dropout who's led a lonesome, unfulfilling life. She was on a path to self-destruction until she realized that she needed to live for herself and fill the voids in her heart. One of those voids happens to be the loving embrace by a woman, i.e. her mother, so on the whim, she schedules a hotel date with a female sex worker.